Today's Date.

Today marks the day that I should be having a baby, my due date. April 5th, 2012. I have been dreading this day for the past month. I purposefully made sure I scheduled something on this day. The days have been hurling towards this day. I have been thinking lately about how I should be right now. I should be finishing up the nursery because you're never fully prepared for the second like you are the first. I should be huge and waddling. My face should have that puffy last 2 weeks looks right now. I should be having a baby today. Jake should be getting a sibling.

I am so certain that God KNEW I needed to completely and totally be drowning in something else to keep my mind off of it. And so, today, we have potty-trained per Jake's decision to start potty-ing yesterday. It's nearly all I've thought about all day, those two things. I will confess that I did manage a 2 hour nap, and the child is still napping, and dinner is done in the crock pot, and the husband is home from work early to begin his long weekend. So there are PLENTY of positives right here in front of me. My glass is half full. :)

A friend of mine recently wrote on her blog about this very same subject. It touched me really deeply and was posted at the most perfect of times. Exactly one month before and exactly when I had begun to think about the coming date. I will not lie and say I cried no tears of sadness today as the date was on my mind any time I had a moment to think about non-potty related things. But this day was a lot better than I had imagine several weeks ago. Thank you, Monica, for the light you shed on choosing JOY with this very topic. :) Here is her post. Monica's blog post She said it SO well in that second paragraph, and mostly when she said she cried tears of happiness and sorrow at the same time. I can not tell you how many times I have done that. It is a really bittersweet thing when life goes on around you and everybody else gets so easily what you so desperately want.

Jake is doing great with potty stuff. I go to work tomorrow and it's all on Daddy to keep it up! He'll do great. Seriously, this kid is amazing me! Oh! I almost forgot!! He got a big-boy hair cut today! He got his very first hair cut in June or July of last year and ever since has only gotten trims. But that hair was getting a little bit unruly when it got sweaty from playing outside, or whatever. And I can't have my boy looking less than cute!! He looks SO handsome with his big-boy hair. And he was SO funny during the cut. He just sat there and watched in the mirror as my friend, Kristie, did her thing. He didn't even make a stink about the clippers when they came out! I told him it tickled, and he just kept talking about how it tickled. He did great. Afterward, we went to Krispy Kreme for momma's sake and for Jake being so good. :) He got a sprinkles donut. And he got one to take home for when he did the first #2 (sorry lol), which he HAS done, and he wanted to wait till after his nap for his big special donut.

Wooo!

He's looking in the big mirror in front of him.

Just watching himself get his haircut.

SO handsome!

Jakey's special donut for being a big boy during his hair cut.

Totally excited about his BIG accomplishment.

Still looks the same on the top, but it's big boy in the back. Mixed feelings here! But it's super cute, of course.

Jake is now up from his nap and sitting with me asking me to put the "peter" (computer) down, so I must go. Happy Thursday!